Lets dig deeper shall we...I was also in a horrible relationship from the age of 16-22. What a waste, those are the formative, independent, soul searching years and I wasted them on a guy who was insanely jealous and insecure. Little factoid I learned throughout that journey, the guys who accuse you of cheating are ALWAYS the ones who are actually cheating on YOU. I shared this because I think not only was I not active, but I was also hiding. Hiding from ANY attention from other guys and just plain hiding because I have been misunderstood shy my whole life! I say misunderstood because most shy people get a snotty, stuck up, stick in the mud reputation. For the most part I have overcome my shyness throughout the years, and my boisterous, life of the party husband has definitely helped me in the shy department. So what better way to hide than behind a good 60lbs. Because when you hide behind weight you don't have to make the hard choice to break up with the awful boyfriend for a kinder cuter guy.
Weight Loss to date: -17 lbs
32 more lbs to go to reach high school weight
So here are some pics to give some visual: (Isn't it so irritating that when you look at pics, you instantly go to the parts about yourself that you have disliked your whole life).
I was a Junior in high school. Probably one of the LAST times I wore a bikini. Probably a size 10-12 in this photo.
Jump to Age 24 (just recently engaged, like 2 days before this pic, on a Baccalaureate trip to Chicago)
I don't hate this pic. These jeans are considered my threshold skinny jeans. Maybe 15-20 lbs more than the high school pic.
Wedding Day 2006
Gained about 15lbs from engagement time to wedding day. No joke, very nervous I wouldn't fit in the dress!
2 Months after giving birth to my first babe. Uggh this pic is the worst! New Years Eve 2009
Feeling a little better after a decent weight loss over the Summer of 2009.
Loved this trip...to Grand Haven...thinking of going back in the next month.
Brooklyn's first sand experience.
Pregnant, ok uuuuber pregnant with Bugsy. Here's the crazy part, what I weighed in this pic is not the heaviest I've been throughout my 20's. I gained the normal amount with both pregnancies, literally 33lbs with both babes.
This picture tells such a story...it shows my joy for my kids, but its so clear I'm HIDING.
I have NO current pics because I'm never in front of the camera, always the one taking the pictures. But my current weight is give or take a pound of what I was on my wedding day. I'm going to STOP hiding and start getting in front of the camera with weekly What I Wore pictures.
7:00am-Breakfast Options: 1 cup of Cereal, Chobani Yogurt, or just a banana.
11:00am-Lunch Options: Healthy Choice Steamer, salad concoction from my fridge, or somethin while we are out and about.
3:00pm-Snack Options: V8 juice, cheese chunk, fruit, or veggie
6:00pm-Dinner (here's where the badness begins) I usually eat whatever, AND then don't stop. I'm not saying I eat bags of potato chips, but I stay up SO late and get bored. I have noticed on the days where I don't eat at night the scale is a much nicer sight the next day! Ding Ding!
Here's what I've eaten today: 9:00am-banana, pineapple, and watermelon
1:00pm-Sbarro pizza slice & breadstick
3:00pm-Nonfat Carmel Machiatto Iced
17 WW Points used already
AND my weakness is sweet stuff like chocolate and wine. Forget about it if its a combo like my Grand Traverse Sweet Red Wine!!!! You can't just have one glass of that yummy goodness.
OK since I've been turned onto this concept of 30 before 30, to which I will share later this week....on that ever so important list of 'things to do before your 30'....(I of course will have my own spin because 30 is only about 5+ months away) 31 things to do before I'm 31! LOSE WEIGHT! A LOT OF WEIGHT!
1. Lose 50+ lbs (only 33 to go)
I WILL CONQUER THIS WEIGHT ISSUE!! I WILL NO LONGER HIDE BEHIND THE CAMERA! I WILL NO LONGER BE A SHADOW OF WHO I AM INSIDE.
Thanks to whoever continued to read my vulnerable truths. Phew that was a long one!